In 2005 mornings started at 11am in a tiny studio apartment where my friend cassidi and I lived. I’d play video games then take 2 hours to put on my makeup.

In 2007 my morning routine was being woken up by chickens taunting my dog by pecking at my sliding glass door of the cabin. I’d go scare them off before climbing back into bed.

In 2010 I would walk down Pike, first stoping to get coffee and buy cigarettes. then hop on the light-rail at Westlake Center downtown. I’d ride on the train for 45 minutes listening to Kate Nash on my iPod.

In 2014…It’s 6:45 am when first lucy comes in asking me to turn on cartoons from my phone. I have a remote app. Mila wakes up and starts nursing. I have to pee but am stuck there for at least 45 minutes. I’m still in a fog but I check my Instagram and email. Then justin and I discuss if he’ll be taking Lucy to school or if I have to take her to the bus stop. Mila wants fruit and scrambled eggs. Lucy wants hard boiled eggs and cinnamon toast. Neither actually eat the meal I’ve prepared. I spend 5 minutes explaining to Lucy YES YOU HAVE TO WEAR A COAT then remember I still haven’t changed mila’s diaper. I miss waking up and not immediately having to do so much for others!

In 2020 I bet I’ll think how much I miss waking up next to Mila. How much I miss cutting crust off Lucy’s toast. And the comfort of a baby on my hip as little arms hug me goodbye before school.

In 2030 I might miss the satisfaction of getting to do so much for people I love. They might be out of the house but justin and I will still wake up at 7am expecting to be needed. Missing being needed as much as we are now.





Rain rain


For the children of the Pacific Northwest, days spent at the beach are quite different than most of the world. It means bundling up to walk on the unleveled ground provided my rocks and shells that come in a million shades of grey. Sea glass and empty dried crab shells are tucked snuggly between barnacle covered stones.
Unfortunately my girls totally belong in California. They whine over the tiniest amount of rain. They love the mall and cake pops. Hot pink everything and dance moms.
I used to jump on my trampoline in the rain for hours and would come in soaking wet happy as can be. Id play in the mud flats as a child and loved finding huge shells.
My girls jump in puddles and 5 minutes later ask to go inside to get warm.
I love this city. This is where I belong. But I’ve accepted my children might leave me for LA when they get older. Or maybe they are still just getting over colds and weren’t in the mood today and I’m reading too much into it. But oh well, I had a nice day! And they got hot cocoa. So win win.






Kiddie Pool Party

It was 88 degrees today. May. Seattle. Wahhhht?!? So naturally we filled up the kiddie pool, invited some of mila’s pals over and had a kiddie pool party. Thank you so much everyone who came out and had fun with us! It was awesome chatting with all you ❤