In 2005 mornings started at 11am in a tiny studio apartment where my friend cassidi and I lived. I’d play video games then take 2 hours to put on my makeup.
In 2007 my morning routine was being woken up by chickens taunting my dog by pecking at my sliding glass door of the cabin. I’d go scare them off before climbing back into bed.
In 2010 I would walk down Pike, first stoping to get coffee and buy cigarettes. then hop on the light-rail at Westlake Center downtown. I’d ride on the train for 45 minutes listening to Kate Nash on my iPod.
In 2014…It’s 6:45 am when first lucy comes in asking me to turn on cartoons from my phone. I have a remote app. Mila wakes up and starts nursing. I have to pee but am stuck there for at least 45 minutes. I’m still in a fog but I check my Instagram and email. Then justin and I discuss if he’ll be taking Lucy to school or if I have to take her to the bus stop. Mila wants fruit and scrambled eggs. Lucy wants hard boiled eggs and cinnamon toast. Neither actually eat the meal I’ve prepared. I spend 5 minutes explaining to Lucy YES YOU HAVE TO WEAR A COAT then remember I still haven’t changed mila’s diaper. I miss waking up and not immediately having to do so much for others!
In 2020 I bet I’ll think how much I miss waking up next to Mila. How much I miss cutting crust off Lucy’s toast. And the comfort of a baby on my hip as little arms hug me goodbye before school.
In 2030 I might miss the satisfaction of getting to do so much for people I love. They might be out of the house but justin and I will still wake up at 7am expecting to be needed. Missing being needed as much as we are now.
For the children of the Pacific Northwest, days spent at the beach are quite different than most of the world. It means bundling up to walk on the unleveled ground provided my rocks and shells that come in a million shades of grey. Sea glass and empty dried crab shells are tucked snuggly between barnacle covered stones.
Unfortunately my girls totally belong in California. They whine over the tiniest amount of rain. They love the mall and cake pops. Hot pink everything and dance moms.
I used to jump on my trampoline in the rain for hours and would come in soaking wet happy as can be. Id play in the mud flats as a child and loved finding huge shells.
My girls jump in puddles and 5 minutes later ask to go inside to get warm.
I love this city. This is where I belong. But I’ve accepted my children might leave me for LA when they get older. Or maybe they are still just getting over colds and weren’t in the mood today and I’m reading too much into it. But oh well, I had a nice day! And they got hot cocoa. So win win.
It was 88 degrees today. May. Seattle. Wahhhht?!? So naturally we filled up the kiddie pool, invited some of mila’s pals over and had a kiddie pool party. Thank you so much everyone who came out and had fun with us! It was awesome chatting with all you ❤
We were actually supposed to go to the Pacific Science Center today. I was so excited to take Mila to the tropical butterfly house where there are hundreds of colorful butterflies everywhere. But instead parking downtown turned into us bickering because there wasn’t any parking, I thought for sure there would be spots in one lot and there wasn’t. Going round and round and there was all this construction. Ugh. Then Justin said ef it, let’s just get coffee and go to a park on Capitol Hill. Which at first I hated the idea of cause I felt bad that I told Mila we’d see butterflies and we didn’t.
But we got up the hill. Found a spot right on Broadway. And instantly we were both is great moods. We used to live over here and these were the streets we fell in love on. We went to our old Starbucks and took Mila to the park we used to always take Lucy to. I haven’t laughed so hard in forever. It even started pouring buckets and we still managed to have fun. I’m learning that when things aren’t going well, when you can’t find parking, things are getting tense, it’s better to just bail and make new plans than to force it.
Such a beautiful day. We had our entire family over for brunch. My family really are my favorite people in the whole world and I wish we all got together more often. The kids just played in the yard all day. No seriously. All day.
The only problem with that 3 month break from blogging I took when transitioning from goodnightmush.wordpress.com to theseparents.com is that I wasn’t saving full sized versions of our family photos anywhere. I think all of our holiday photos were smashed into 15 second Instagram slideshows. So I made it my mission to go through my email and see how many holiday photos I could salvage. Sadly a ton are missing. And many I had to snag from IG. But I’m glad I have all of these now saved.
This was our family, thanksgiving-Christmas 2013.
Ok for like 3 years now I’ve been talking about growing an herb garden on our deck and we only just today actually got the motivation to do it. We spend so much money on mint and limes it’s kinda ridiculous. But Justin’s a bartender and so it’s pretty necessary. We can’t exactly grow lime in Washington, but we did decide to fill on pot on our patio with mint so that’s one less thing to buy. And one thing lead to another and now we have an herb garden on our deck right off the kitchen. We got those little starters cause I don’t have the patience for seeds. So stoked to just go cut off some chive like we did when we were kids. My mom always kept gorgeous gardens anywhere we lived. I can’t wait to garden with her this spring and summer!
Let me begin this by saying I know you have another Dad. A dad who loves you very much, who held you the day you were born and will always be a huge part of your life. But you aren’t a little girl with a dad and a step dad. You have two dads.
Our relationship and the role I will play in your life doesn’t require an extra title. I’m not just your moms husband. I met you when you still drank out of a bottle. I went to the store at 2am to get you milk and pushed you in a stroller. I hope you don’t remember a life without me in it.
You are my daughter no different than Mila is. I’ve been warned to prepare myself to hear “you aren’t my real dad!” when you’re a teenager mad at your mother and I for not letting you go out with your friends or taking your phone away. But I already have my response ready to go: “I
am your dad!” Biological or not, I love you, will take care of you, help you succeed and will always be there for you.
Right along side the Ballard Locks, is the Carl S. English Jr. Botanical Gardens. Which is a massive public garden and walking path. Everything blooms at the same time the salmon can be seen in the fish latters. Ok I know this all sounds a little wacky unless you are from here, but simply, the Ballard locks are a way of giving the boats and the fish safe passage through while also acting kinda like a dam.
Anywho, when the fish are swimming the latter and the garden is in full bloom it’s so crowded it’s not even worth going. Especially on the weekend. But during the week the schools all visit so it’s chaos then too.
But today it was perfect. Not too many people, we could see a ship coming through, and it just just enough cherry blossoms and flowers to make it worth checking out.
Mila is really wanting to explore on her own and we follow her along and she puts rocks in her mouth, climbs up and down the same curb, and posts at everything saying “this!!” It was not a bad way to spend a Monday, not at all.
Justin’s mom is visiting from Chicago so we’ll be hitting up all our favorite spots this week. First things first, Justin took her to our grocery store which really is our favorite place to go as a family. But today we went and hung out at Carkeek. There are so many beach/park combos near the Puget sound this ones our favorite because it’s huge yet never crowded. The play area is unique with a giant salmon shaped slide and it’s right on the train tracks so those darling enough can actually stand on the stairs that lead to the beach and watch the train fly by right under your feet. I think it’s terrifying but the kids just love seeing the train even if it’s from a far far away safe distance. I wish I could take more photos of the view from the playground and the play area but the rules of taking photos of your own kids with other kids around is always kinda blurry. Like if one mom busts out her iPhone then I feel more comfortable that she’s ok if I start taking photos of my kids with hers in the background. But today I was the only mom with a huge clunky camera in her hands so I felt way less comfortable. But Carkeek park is awesome I swear.